*This is my grandma and she’s awesome*
Today is not all that difficult. I feel that it is getting easier, as long as I don’t look in the mirror, I am going to tell you my struggles though because while I haven’t been sad today there are things that I find myself doing that I am unsure about. I find myself trying to compensate for my face. I dress nicer, do my hair and I even bought crest whitening strips last night at Target.
It is as though I am embarrassed to show my face to the world still. I want to prove to them that I am still beautiful even though my face might not be. There has been improvement, and progress though, so now that I’m finished with the struggles I would like to focus on that.
I am beginning to think that I look okay. I don’t completely freak out when I look at myself in the mirror. I don’t think I look beautiful or even decent but I don’t think I look terrible anymore. This is progress that I can see which excites me.
Something I need to work on is ensuring that, in the most ridiculous way possible to describe this feeling, my make-up senses don’t tingle so to speak. Meaning that I don’t feel like I need to put make-up on each day.
I have been able to sleep in ten minutes later every day! Yay. Go not wearing make-up! Also I don’t dread washing my face anymore because now it’s so much simplier. I don’t have to rub at my eyes to get the mascara off. I don’t have to ensure that all of the foundation is off. I just throw some of my face wash on, splace my face and I’m good to go!
In other news, I am reviewing a novella called, Call me by your name I’ll be posting the review on here soon so watch out for that. And I didn’t go bouldering yesterday (which is why there are no pictures of it for yesterdays post) but I will be doing that today! I’m also going to give you a small overview of what it is like to start bouldering as a beginner! Hell yeah! Today I also had lunch with my grandma which was pretty great.
Also, please enjoy a slightly terrible but not completely terrible picture of my face! (I should never go into sales)
Until next time!