So after relapsing yesterday (yes, I’m calling it relapsing because wearing make-up for me is basically an addiction) I’m back at the no make-up look.
I love working with guys because they literally say NOTHING about it. They don’t even notice, and it is awesome. Either they feel too weird about it or really didn’t even know that I wasn’t wearing make-up (which is hard to believe because my face looks very different. See day 5), either way I love it. Girls notice too much stuff. This is a blessing and a curse. It is a blessing when I get a haircut or wear a new dress, or get eyelash extensions etc. It is a curse when I do something like, oh I don’t know, not wear make-up.
My mother noticed that I wasn’t wearing make-up, my grandmother noticed, and well, those are really the only girls I’ve been around recently. (I work at a tech job so I work with mostly men and my only other female coworker is gone this week) I can tell my fiance notices but I don’t think he minds too much.
Today wasn’t too difficult. I’m also fasting today though so most of my energy has been spent on that. Drinking water and focusing on mind over body. I’ve found that when I think about hunger as something that I can control with my mind it becomes a lot easier. I think to myself, “I’m not dying. I’m fine, it’s just my biological responce to being hungry. This is normal and I just have to focus my concentration on other things.” This helps me. It does not, however, help Kwan. He tried fasting with me and almost died. I mean that theoretically. He was fine but he loves food a lot more than I do and thinking about it in the way that I do doesn’t seem to help him. Something else I’ve been using to try and help me not focus on the hunger that is eating me alive, just kidding, is to instead focus on the results. I lost 3 lbs last time I did this. Think about that binki body. Think about feeling great about my weight again. Think about fitting into my size 2 jeans again (I wear a 4 now). I’ve kept one pair of jeans from when I used to be very thin in hopes of one day fitting into them again. This isn’t super important to me, but I really loved those jeans and was bummed when I couldn’t wear them anymore.
In other news I will probably be going bouldering tonight and tomorrow night. Yikes. My forearms will be on fire all weekend. Wish me luck. I’ll update with pictures.
By the way I really really hate posting pictures of my face without make-up but at the end of this I am hoping to put a video together of all of the photos and see if my skin improved. Also, I’m using them as proof so you know that I’m not making this up.
Until next time